The freedom in being "boring"

 I’ve decided that I’m finally going to allow myself to be boring

Let me explain. I watched a video on YouTube earlier about finding a job that you’ll really love. The first point that he made was that you have to choose the activity over the title, or something to that effect. Essentially, you should pick a job because you’d enjoy the day-to-day tasks of it, not because you like the title of the occupation. And that got me thinking, how many things have I done in life because I liked how it made me look. Or because of how people would perceive me. When I was in fashion school, there’s surprisingly a lot of emphasis about how people appear to be. And because we were all studying fashion, we’re kinda taught to judge people by their attire. And even though I loved dressing up, or creating a specific aesthetic with how I dressed, I think I internilised it a bit too much. I tried creating a new identity for myself in the way that I dressed. And obviously I still enjoy dressing up, but I realised through they years that there’s clothes that are considered “boring” that I feel more like myself in. At least on a daily basis. And it frees up some mental space to focus on other stuff. And for so long I was worried about what people would think about my outfit repeating, or their expectations of me to dress up because of what my job is. And frankly, it just makes my life more complicated. So I’ve decided that from now on I’ll be wearing all the “boring” clothes like skinny jeans and dozens of variations of black tops because that’s when I feel most like myself. I also want to allow myself to embrace my athletic side and wear activewear/athleisure when I so desire to. There’s no point in dressing in a way that I think people expect me to dress

:)

Janie